Help!

Hi guys!

I know a few weeks back I wrote about how I was all excited about taking part in a writing contest. Now I am not even sure I will. In fact, I am not even sure I should be writing at all. I make one excuse after another. It is becoming so rediculous. This entire thing is depressing me.

My friend said I appear to want to give up. I just do not know what I want. If I give up, what will that prove? Not a lot. It will only prove that I am a quitter and a loser whom is not worth anything. What I really need is to kick myself in the ass. I need to write-and I need to do it right this second. I have to. I can't give up. I won't let everyone down.